Friday, July 31, 2020

Day 98: You Can Tech If You Want To... Part 4

Day 98 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload...

Considering it's been over a month since I did my last tech update, and that I spent most of the day recording/otherwise working with tech, I suppose that's a reasonable post for one of my last official days on this blog.

Where to begin.

Last time I discussed tech, I was just learning some of the basics of my new linux build, and had only recently begun to work with Ardour/my audio interface/mic/midi keyboard controller.

I would love to say that I now am fully versed in everything that linux has to offer, however, that is 100% not the case.

Let's start with the build itself.

I honestly don't think that I've made any huge advances with running the operating system itself.  I still haven't spent a lot of time learning, well, really anything, about the source code or how to manipulate it.  Which means that whenever I run into difficulties that are beyond my skill-set, I still have to speed-dial my older brother for assistance (like I did today.  Thanks, Justin!)

I still appreciate the aesthetics of the system and its general functionality.  I'm even more grateful to have a full set-up from which to work (especially considering my current daily routine).

Now onto music.

I've been spending a lot of time working on the musical side of things recently.  From arranging, to practicing, to recording, editing, and mastering, the music half of my build has had a significant amount of use, which means I'm learning new things most every day.

Recent ardour advances:
  • managing plugins
  • adjusting inputs
  • reducing system latency for vocal recordings
  • exporting files
  • (very basic) mastering techniques - aka adding reverb
  • editing midi input (to rewrite portions as necessary post record)
And today...
  • eliminating excess components that hog memory
  • rerouting outside plugin
  • transferring audio between recordings
Like I said though, I still have loads to learn, but I'm still enjoying the process, and loving having the ability to make music from my home (for the first time in several years, and relatively efficiently for the first time ever!)

Til tomorrow,
Hannah

If you're interested in reading the rest of this conversation, click the links below!
You Can Tech If You Want To... Part 1

Question of the Day: How do you define success?
Challenge of the Day: Reach out to someone you haven't talked to in ages!
Photo of the Day:

Thursday, July 30, 2020

Day 97: Enneagram?

After yesterday's late night post, I was going to blog early for Day 97 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload.

Obviously that didn't happen.

Today, I had what I would almost deem as impressive lack of motivation. 
After sleeping in and having to take care of a housing related task soon after waking up, my schedule has been off all day. Add to that high distractability and increased cravings secondary to being tired, it's no wonder very little was actually accomplished. 

I know I'm not the only one who does it, but it's crazy how easy it is to value the day by its accomplishments.

But in doing so, I know I tend to brush aside the little things.

Though, today I'm honestly not even sure what little things were done..

Oh well. 

In other news, I'm normally a big MBTI fan, but the other day I re-assessed my enneagram.

Every time, I test as a 9, with supposedly 98% correspondence.

Guys, I don't buy it. By all external measures, I would argue that I'm clearly a 7.

But the test always says differently. 

Would anyone care to explain this discrepancy? 

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Question of the Day: MBTI or Enneagram?
Challenge of the Day: Do more than I did. It won't take much

Wednesday, July 29, 2020

Day 96: Not Giving Up Now

Day 96 of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload. It's 11:50. Ten minutes to save this blogging streak, so I'll keep it short. 

Question of the Day: Do you prefer to read the book or watch the movie?
Challenge of the Day: Keep your word.
Photo of the Day: Still not working on my phone. To be added later. 

Tuesday, July 28, 2020

Day 95: Dance, Dance

Day 95 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaytoOffload brought to you by... yeah, no idea.

Short post Tuesday:
Last evening I happened to run across a youtube channel that has cardio dance workouts to soundtracks, etc

Now, mind you, I'm NOT a dancer.  But I love any excuse to do cardio, so today I checked a couple out - The Greatest Showman and the creator's third Disney playlist.

They were great!

I thoroughly enjoyed the workouts (again, not like I can dance, at all), and got a good sweat up too! (Disregard the fact that I don't think I've stopped sweating for more than a month since I moved here...)

Who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll switch it up and check out the Hamilton one.

Til then,
Hannah

Question of the Day: What's your favorite workout?
Challenge of the Day: Mix up your workout by adding something new!
Photo of the Day:

Monday, July 27, 2020

Day 94: Quirk

Day 94 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload... After last night's philosophical post, let's go with something more fun.

Hannah Quirk!

So, I have wayyy too many empty plastic water bottles.  I'll recycle them eventually, but first, I like to get as much use out of them as is reasonable. Which means that I refill them.  All.  (Yes, my refrigerator ends up quite full by the end.)

But in refilling them, I hate letting water go to waste, and I hate having the process take forever.  So I make it a game.

I start with the first water bottle - take the cap off, and start filling.
As it fills, I try to take the caps off as many bottles as possible, while still getting the next bottle under the tap with as little loss as possible.
This continues until all the caps are off.
At which time I start putting the caps back on.

I used to also try to put all the bottles in the refrigerator as part of the game, but that got to be too much of a balancing act.

Anyway, that's all I've got for today.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Question of the Day: What's a weird quirk that you have?
Challenge of the Day: Learn the alphabet backwards.
Photo of the Day:

Sunday, July 26, 2020

Day 93: And That's My New Philosophy

Day 93 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload brought to you by minimal motivation.

Happy Sunday, y'all.

This morning, I had the pleasure of not sleeping from about 2:30 through...the rest of the night.

As any normal individual would do, I spent an enjoyable 3 hours analyzing modern culture as it relates to a cohesive philosophy.  At the time, I was very tempted to write up my analysis for today's blog post, but thought better of it. From that point, however, I have two thoughts/questions to pose in today's discussion.

First:
Why are middle of the night thoughts so clear? Like, when I'm truly awake during the night, my mind is racing.  But not out of fear, it's just able to easily and cohesively jump through concepts and topics, finding connections that I never see in the light.

And second:
What is reality?
This question stems from a recent/on-going discussion with a good friend secondary to a video that he had shared regarding Einstein's theory of relativity, in which the natural question was posed: what is time?  And does it cease to exist without a point of reference?  Is it not simply a construct employed to define a phenomena that we experience, yet do not understand?

After a short discourse, the inevitable conclusion was that this is true of every aspect of our daily lives.

Size? A relative term, determined by our distance from the object and a system of measurements defined by humanity.
Color? A variable characteristic of light as interpreted by the brain, corresponding to a number of frequencies, as defined by humanity.
Speed?
Sound?
We could literally go on all day.

From this point, then, it is reasonable to propose that reality itself is subjective - simply a construct with which to interpret our experiences.  In this, "reality" as we know it is defined by our experiences, while concurrently creating and defining not only our experiences, but our very existence.

The greatest beauty, however, lies in the consistent inconsistencies in observed phenomena that even allow the constructs we live by to be quantified, speaking to the existence of a singular greater reality, far beyond that which our minds can perceive.

But what do I know?

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Challenge of the Day:  Ask questions!
Photo of the Day: The only picture I took so far today was of another loaf of sourdough bread, which y'all are probably sick of at this point. So here's a throwback to when I lived someplace with all the views

Saturday, July 25, 2020

Day 92: Does Anybody Have a Map?

Question of Day 92 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload: Is 3 days in a row too many days of discussing sourdough?

Probably.

But that's okay, because today's loaf was absolutely amazing. (I was going to put that in all caps, but it felt excessive.)

I stuck with my previous whole wheat sourdough recipe, but this time rolled it in a combination of garlic powder, oregano, and flour after the initial 18 hour fermentation period.

I may be biased, but it was literally the best garlic and herb bread that I think I've ever had.

Admittedly, I got too excited to try it that I completely forgot to take a picture.

*Facepalm* Millennial fail.

Right now, I have two loaves fermenting.  I figure I'll make one a variation of today's garlic and herb loaf. I'm considering making the second more of a sweet cinnamon swirl, because why not?

In other news, does anyone else ever feel like there are at least 10 different careers that they would love to pursue, but feel like it'd be irresponsible to try?

Throughout the years, I've wanted to - and let's be real, would still love to - become so many vastly different things.

Like a pilot.
And an author.
And a musician.
And a farmer.
And a photographer.
And a barista.
And a chef.
And a live-in nanny.
And a mentor.
And the owner of a bed and breakfast.

Or what about things that aren't a career, but would just be absolutely amazing to accomplish?

Like hiking the grand canyon.
And traveling the world.
And biking across the country.
And running a marathon.
And surfing.
And building a house.
And completing a triathalon.
And swimming in the barrier reef.
And performing on a major stage.
And learning how to code.
And inventing something.
And being able to retire young.

But I don't know where, or how to start.
Or if it's even worth trying.

In other words, my life right now feels like a quote from #DearEvanHansen:

Does anybody have a map?
This is me just pretending to me.
'Cause the scary truth is: I'm flying blind, and I'm making it up as I go.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Challenge for the Day: Come up with a challenge for the day
Photo of the Day: Courtesy of another run (back to the house) in the rain



Friday, July 24, 2020

Day 91: Sourdough Update

What to talk about on Day 91 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload?

Today's been a bit of a chill day, for better or worse.  I had planned on writing more substantial posts for my last 10 days of this challenge, or at least attempting to.   But now that blogging time is here, I'm not sure what to say.

Or maybe that's an indication that it's not supposed to be blogging time.
Who knows.
As Tropical Storm Hannah has officially moved in though, it would seem that my normal evening walk is cancelled, so why not blog?

Today, as promised, I made my second loaf of sourdough bread - a whole wheat loaf.  Before coming up to blog, I finally removed it from the pan that I've been using for baking, and was pleasantly surprised by the results.

Once again, prior to baking, the loaf hadn't seemed to rise that much. However, from the start, this loaf was much better at holding its own form.  This quality held true through baking, and allowed the loaf to rise a little bit more.  I changed the design that I scored in the top this time (still keeping it simple).  I'm not sure if that was the differentiating factor, but the top crust was much flakier today.

I opted to not try the bread yet tonight - I've had enough to eat for today (the problem of baking when you're single) - so I'll have to report back on the flavor tomorrow.

Since I had a substantial amount of starter discard today that I didn't feel like using to make yet another starter, I decided to combine it and put it in a single discard jar for later use.

Which obviously meant that I had to try to make sourdough cookies this evening as well. Wanting to gain a better understanding of the process, I decided to just jump in and throw ingredients together rather than actually following a recipe (go figure).

Admittedly, my recipe-less cookie recipe needs a bit of help.  The cup of sourdough starter plus whole wheat bread and minimal sugar was probably my greatest downfall, as they're not exactly... sweet?  However, they've got a decent cake-like texture that I think I'd be okay sticking with (maybe I'll drop that a little bit?) 

Tomorrow's (tentative) adventure is going to be adding herbs/spices to the whole wheat loaf that I currently have proofing.  And maybe trying the cookie recipe again?  We'll see if Hannah leaves me with power... Here's to hoping!

'Til then,
Hannah

Question of the Day: Does anyone else just like messing with recipes to see what happens?
Challenge of the Day: Do a new workout!
Photo of the Day: My First Whole Wheat Sourdough Loaf!

Thursday, July 23, 2020

Day 90: Bread Take 1!

Guys - it's Day 90 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload - only 10 more to go!

It's an early (ish) post day, partially because I need to feel like I've done something with my life today, and partially because, why not?

But Hannah, you just said yesterday that you're normally super productive in the mornings and late afternoons... what happened?

Well guys, today was a good distracted day.

When I was back home in Ohio, my mom and I had made homemade bread from a long-time family recipe (that, of course, I changed, because that's what I do).  As always, it was delicious.

Upon returning to the South and having an incredible amount of free-time, I decided that I wanted to try to make bread on my own.

The catch?

I don't own any proper bread making things.
Like bread tins.
Or a mixer - of any sort.
Or the towels that you put over bread when it rises.
Or windows that face the sun to help with the rising process.
Or even a whisk apparently.

During quarantine, however, I knew there had been a big push for making sourdough.  I had no idea what I was getting into, but figured that would be a nice, easy bread to start with.

*Insert laughter here from all of you who know anything about making sourdough bread*

As any good millennial would do, I took to the internet to see what I was up against, figuring that I'd start on the bread as soon as I got the necessary ingredients from the store.

*Keep laughing*

Which is when I realized that I was in over my head.

The first site I went to was for "Beginner Sourdough".  How perfect!
I started reading...

-Sourdough starter
-Scale to measure ingredients
-Dutch oven
-24 hour long process

What?!  Surely this was an overachiever site.
So I went to another one.
And another.
And another.
Only to find that they all said the same thing.

As y'all have been with me for 90 whole days now, you're probably aware that I'm not much of one for precision and rules - especially when it comes to the kitchen.

So, I went to the store, bought a bag of all-purpose flour, and figured I'd figure something out.
Worst case scenario? I was out $1.59 for the flour and a bit of time.

Day 1: Make Sourdough Starter

Apparently you can also buy the stuff, but in the midst of COVID, I wasn't really all that keen on going out and trying to find sourdough starter at a store, so I found one of the recipes and gave it a go.

Though virtually all of the sites emphasized the necessity of precise measurements, I, of course, disregarded this, and found the closest approximates that I could find - 1 cup flour to just over 1/2 cup cool-ish water.  Mix and let sit for 24 hours.  Dump half at this time, and then re-feed mixture.  Repeat for 7-10 days.

Great.

About 6 hours in though, I started to see bubbles in my mixture.  It was working!
Eagerly, I ditched the 24 hour theory, dumped half the mixture into a jar that I put in the fridge, and re-fed the initial portion.

7-10 days? Psshh. They must not live in the south!

Day 2: Feed Sourdough Starter

I don't remember exactly when I re-fed on day 2.  It was probably 12 hours after the last feeding session?  Once again, I poured half the mixture into another jar that I stuck in the fridge, removed the previous fridge jar, and re-fed the initial.

Repeat for evening feeding, this time feeding the first day's discard too.

Day 3: I'm Impatient.

Day 3 started out like every other day - feeding, discarding, yada, yada.  By this point, the initial mixture and first day's discard were taking on a sour, yet fresh smell.

Success.

Which also meant that I started to get more impatient.

Early afternoon, I went to look at my sourdough starter(s) for approximately the 14th time that day.  The first day's discard was perfectly bubbled so it looked like an airy/frothy sour mixture.

Overwhelmed by curiosity and tired of waiting, I pulled up a "Simple Sourdough" recipe and got to work.

1/2 cup starter
2 Tbsp oil
1 cup lukewarm water
2 tsp salt
2 3/4 cup flour

Whisk first 3 ingredients together, then add salt and flour until you can clean the bottom of the bowl with the dough.

My measurements, of course, weren't exact, but does that actually matter?  Only one way to find out!

The dough was a bit sticky, but eventually it got to a consistency that I thought was reasonable.  Back into the bowl it went to rise for 12-18 hours.

About 6 hours in, I was beginning to become concerned that I had failed miserably, as the dough hadn't risen at all.  By late evening though, I started seeing slight bubbling in the dough.  Fermentation success!

Day 4: Make Bread!

By morning, my previously presumed failure had risen another 2+ inches, nearly filling the bowl it was in - perfect!  After a walk and starting breakfast it was time to put this recipe to the rest of the test.

I quickly threw some flour on a piece of parchment paper (not my best idea in retrospect) and dumped the dough out of the bowl.

It was super sticky.  So I folded it as suggested with plenty of flour (maybe too much?) to strengthen the dough.

After folding it, I tried to mold the dough, but it still wasn't keen on holding it's shape.  Nevertheless, into the floured bowl it went (because I don't own a bread basket).

The recipe called for 2.5 hours of rising time. However, when I checked on the loaf, it definitely hadn't doubled in size.  At 4 hours in, it didn't look like I had really made any progress, so I decided to just turn the oven on and go for it.

There were several options presented to try to achieve the crispy crust, soft interior - a dutch oven, trying to create steam in the oven, etc.
I don't have a dutch oven, but figured any oven-friendly bowl with a lid would be sufficient, so I put it in the oven turned to 450F and waited.  Once temperature was achieved, I removed the pan, inserted the dough, (probably should've greased the pan...), scored the dough, decreased the temp to 400F, and put the pan with dough back in the oven.

It was supposed to take 50-60 minutes.  But, as could probably be expected, I don't normally set timers either.  Annnd I've refused to reset the time on my microwave after 3 power failures in a week, so I really have no idea how long it sat.

But eventually, the bread had a golden brown crust, so I removed it from the oven to let it sit in the pan (with lid) for another... while (pretty much until I got too impatient to try it).

Results

Considering I did almost everything wrong,  I was pleasantly surprised by the results!  The crust was perfectly crispy. And the loaf looked surprisingly presentable. It didn't rise as much as I had hoped, so the bread itself was more dense than it's probably supposed to be, but the taste was phenomenal!

Success? I'd say yes.

Which means that, of course, I have another batch of dough prepping presently!  This time I decided to try a whole wheat loaf instead.  Thus far, it's holding it's shape much better than the first, so we'll see how it continues to rise, and what the end product yields - I'll keep y'all posted :)

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Question of the Day: Do you have any fun baking stories?
Challenge of the Day: Try your hand at making bread!
Photo of the Day: Finished sourdough loaf #1 

Wednesday, July 22, 2020

Day 89: Schedule

On this 89th day of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload, I don't really have much of anything to say, so I guess I'll talk about the pattern of productivity that I've noticed in this past week. 

I've said repeatedly how fond I am of mornings. It should come as no surprise then that this is normally one of my most productive times. From around 7:30 or 8 to noonish, I feel like I often stay busy - be it working with music or blogging. Let's be real, that's most of all I do for now.

From there I hit a bit of a lull. Maybe its because I try to intermittent fast on a daily basis, having most food consumed by between 3 and 4, or maybe my brain just wants a break. In any case, if I'm going to want distractions, its often during this time.

After 4, the day generally picks back up. With fewer hours left in the day, I feel an increased motivation to be productive, which carries me until a sufficient time in the evening when I can call family to catch up on life before finishing a few remaining projects and hitting the hay.

Which I think I'll do before long. 

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Question of the Day: Do you have times of the day when you work best?
Challenge of the Day: (try to) be patient!
Photo of the Day:

Tuesday, July 21, 2020

Day 88: song, Song, SONGS!

Day 88 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload

Since it's getting later, I'll probably keep this relatively short.

Earlier this week, I had been requested to come up with a list of some of my favorite praise/worship songs for potential future church recordings.  Off the top of my head, I was running pretty short, so this evening I decided to come up with more of a comprehensive list to give the pastor.

It's definitely been over an hour ago that I started this project, and I'm still nowhere near completing it.  At this point, over 80 songs in, I'm not really sure where I should cut it off and be contented (because obviously this is WAYYY over  what is actually necessary...)

There are just too many good songs!

And, as a realization, I may be overly obsessed with Jesus Culture and Bethel music.

Actually, that's not much of a realization - my family could've told you that for years!

So, for tonight, I guess I'll share some that are currently topping my list :)

Closer

Okay, I guess that's enough for an evening.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Question of the Day: How many favorites lists do you have?
Challenge of the Day: Make a list!
Photo of the Day:

Monday, July 20, 2020

Day 87: I've got nothin to say...

Day 87 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload...

Well, I guess the most exciting things in life right now are that I learned the necessity of changing air filters (oops...) and the importance of roach spray, and made a meal that consisted of more than eggs, cottage cheese, or salad.

Woop.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Question of the Day: What defines reality?
Challenge of the Day: Try NOT to run away from people (oops again...)
Photo of the Day:

Sunday, July 19, 2020

Day 86: Filtered

Day 86 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload... what should we talk about today?

There are probably a number of intriguing topics that I could pose, or attempted witty quips that I could share, however the first need more thorough analysis, and the second should be stifled on a matter of taste.

Which I guess is where the conversation will go.

I never intended to be a leader, or really ever do anything that would get me seen in any way shape or form.

Ever.

Sure, as a kid I dreamed for a moment of being famous, but that dream lasted only as long as it took me to realize that with fame comes public invasion of all things private, to which my introverted self said "no way".

And then I became a doctor.

Which sounds all well and good.
Minus the fact that it now matters what I do (and do not) say - at least in any way that could gain public attention.

This concept of branding and image was first introduced to us in the early days of optometry school.  One of the members of the creative team at the university came in and talked to us about our online presence, and the importance of personal branding.

At the time, I honestly thought the idea was a bit much.  Sure, I would go through Facebook and make some settings more private, and pay attention to the photos that I was tagged in, but otherwise?  I strive for authenticity.  What need was there to filter?

Through the years, however, I've begun to understand the wisdom behind the lecture that day.

And so, I'm (slowly) learning to filter.
To learn when to speak, and when to hold my tongue.

It can be frustrating, particularly when I think I have a witty comment that may get a few laughs, but I think it's worth it.

Here's to keeping peace.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Project of the Day: (Because I FINALLY got the vocals to sync better. Now just have to figure out how to efficiently combine vocals with midi!)
Song of the Day: Learning to Be Silent
Question of the Day: Have you seen the comet?!
Challenge of the Day: Hold your tongue
Photo of the Day:

Saturday, July 18, 2020

Day 85: The Sprint Within the Marathon

Day 85 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload.

Pep talk, Hannah.
Only 15 more days to go.
You can do this.

Some days I pretend to be a runner.
Which, in the grand scheme of things, is pretty irrelevant, but stay with me.
Throughout high school, I was a sprinter.
And though I've tried to branch into distance running, with a year of cross country, some random 5ks, a training-less half, and a spontaneous 10 miler, sprints (or some slower grown-up version of them because I never actually take the time to stretch to not pull a hamstring..) are still my favorite.

They're exhausting, but they're short.
They're fast.
And, thank God, you can see the finish line when you start.

Yes, I like running life as a sprint.

But this morning in my quiet time, I was reminded that life is really more of a marathon.
And to be successful, we really have to run each day as a sprint within a marathon - caring both about the moment, for that is all we truly have, while pacing ourselves for eternity.

If I'm honest, I struggle with this in more ways than one.

For much of my life, despite my energy and enthusiasm, I have been indifferent to my life itself, figuring that the long game didn't really matter because I would likely not make there anyway.  As such, few things in my life have consistency.

Why?

Because sprints don't last forever.

At this point, I don't have a good answer as to how to change this mindset.  However, as the old adage goes, to change, you first must admit that you have a problem.

Here's to the first steps of a journey to forever.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Question of the Day: Which describes you more?  A sprinter? Or a distance runner?
Challenge of the Day: Make up your mind to do something consistently.
Photo of the Day:

Friday, July 17, 2020

Day 84: Relaxing?

It's Day 84 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload, and I'm officially tired of blogging.

Okay, so maybe that's a bit extreme. I'm sure I'll be back ready to blog tomorrow, but for this evening, I'm a bit tired of putting mental effort into tasks.

Which means that, even though I had a thought earlier on what to write today, I have completely forgotten what it was.  And my brain doesn't want to go back and find the topic.

What does my brain want to do?
Relax.

It's funny though.  From my experience, "relaxing" - or not doing anything that takes mental effort - is rarely actually relaxing.  Rather, instead of rejuvenating me, it makes me more exhausted than I was before.

If I remember correctly from something that my older brother once told me, this is because the brain doesn't actually want a break - it just wants a change of scenery.  It doesn't want to be inactive. It simply wants to be doing a different activity.

I guess that makes sense, when I think about it further. Typically, when I'm tired of putting effort in with something, it's less that I really need to quit working altogether, and more that I need to switch and work on something else.

For tonight, I don't really know what that something else is going to be, but that's okay. I'm sure I'll find it.

And if I don't? Well, that's okay too.

Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Song of the Day: Storming
Question of the Day: How do you best relax?
Challenge of the Day: Find a change of scenery
Photo of the Day:

Thursday, July 16, 2020

Day 83: Commitment

Day 83 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload

Today I've been thinking a lot about commitment.
Namely, how much it scares me.

There's a pretty significant part of me that's afraid of committing to, well, anything.

Why?

Because I don't know the future, and I hate making promises that I may not be able to (or want to) keep.  As the ISTP that I am, I know all too well how my thoughts, feelings, and emotions may change at the drop of a hat, leaving me uncomfortable with situations and plans that I previously anticipated.

It has the ability to affect most every area of my life, but right now most of my non-commitment is centered around one topic: work.

Up until this point in my career, work was simple.  I was told when to go, where to go, and what to do.  And I really had no choice in the matter.

But now I do.

And that's what scares me.

Because every path that I take is another path that I forego (or forgo. I'm not sure which spelling I like better..)
And the decision that seems right today may not be the best decision tomorrow.

So what do I do?

The same thing [I] do every day - try to take over the world!
(Question of the Day: What am I quoting?)

Which looks a whole lot like blogging and messing with music.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Challenge of the Day: Make ice cream.
Song of the Day: Abide with Me
Photo of the Day:


Wednesday, July 15, 2020

Day 82: Life (lack of) Update

I guess Day 82 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload is as good as a time as any to provide a bit of a life update.

Not that there is that much to update y'all on, but considering the minimalist nature of the last 13ish posts, since I have the time, I'll make an effort to write at least a little bit more.

Let's see, where to begin.

First off: yes, I am still unemployed.
Honestly, for the past two weeks, unemployment has felt a whole lot like vacation. For the first time since Christmas, I had the opportunity to go home and spend time with family.  Initially, I had only planned on staying a week.  However, a week morphed into, well, not quite 2 weeks, but well over a week.

What is there to do in the middle of nowhere midwest, you may ask?
For me, the last two weeks have been filled with helping on the family farm, playing games, watching movies, tormenting my little brother, going on walks and bike rides, playing with kittens, swimming in my cousins' pond, cooking/baking most of the meals for the family (including grilling), and generally just enjoying the company of the loved ones that I was able to see.

And taking naps :)

Upon returning to the South, I admittedly have not been searching exceptionally hard for optometric related employment opportunities.  Rather, I have been enjoying having the freedom to blog and mess with music.

With that in mind, this morning I enjoyed writing, recording, and editing a piano arrangement (For the Beauty) - it's still not perfect, but I'm content enough to share a rough copy. After spending a little bit of time outside, I then got to work blogging, adding a post to my personal optometric blog (Hannah Vollmer, OD), and working on several others.  To get off my screen for a bit, I went back to the piano to work on a medley and come up potential themes for a new song (neither of those am I going to link presently), before coming back to my computer to write out this post.

Now for a workout, fresh air, or both!

Til tomorrow,
Hannah

Question of the Day: How hard is it to make a living as a freelancer writer?
Challenge of the Day: Create something!
Photo of the Day:

Tuesday, July 14, 2020

Day 81: Silence

Day 81 of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload is a day for silence.

Silence is hard. 
I like running away from the discomfort of it all too much.
But when I choose to sit in the silence and embrace the stillness, it is then that I find peace and hear the gentle call of my savior. 

And so, for tonight, I will savor the silence. 

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah

Question of the Day: are you comfortable with silence?
Challenge of the Day:. Meditate for 5 min
Photo of the Day:

Monday, July 13, 2020

Day 80: Endings

I don't know what to write on this 80th day of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload.

Other than once again I am fighting endings.

Here's to the never-ending battle.

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Question of the Day: what is your favorite TV show?
Challenge of the Day: enjoy the time you've been given
Photo of the Day:

Sunday, July 12, 2020

Day 79: Creating Space

Another day, another short blog.
On this 79th day of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload, I am grateful for the people in my life who foster thought.

Tonight's thought (courtesy of a good friend):
How do you actually create space in writing for thought? 

I all too often simply skim articles, hoping to glean the most information in the least time. 

But how do you create the intended meaning? The depth of the pause, with your words?

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Challenge of the Day: change your thought process
Photo of the Day:

Saturday, July 11, 2020

Day 78: Hamilton

Late post after finishing Hamilton.

Admittedly, I wasn't sure what to think of it until a few before intermission, but after finishing it, i was pleasantly surprised by how much I enjoyed the production. I may never become a 6 time rewatcher, but I definitely understand the hype and would be glad to watch it again.

Til tomorrow,
Hannah 

Question of the Day:  what is your favorite musical? 
Challenge of the Day: spend time with the people you love
Photo of the Day:



Friday, July 10, 2020

Day 77: Decisions

Guys. I'm posting before late o'clock pm on this Day 77 of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload! 

Which isn't to say that I'm not tired... Because I am. But that's beside the point. 

In any case, I spent most of the day today trying to make a decision.
I don't like making decisions.
Not that I like other people making me for them, I just don't want to make them for myself either. 

The primary problem? I don't like to let people down, and it's nearly impossible to make a decision that doesn't feel like it's letting someone down. 

People have told me that I need to make the decisions that are right for me - without taking others into account... But my general thought is that what is best for others will also be best for me.

Which leaves me spending wayyyy to much time trying to figure out what other people are thinking rather than embracing the moment itself.

I don't have a decision fully made yet, but for now it's been put off a lil further - much more comfortable.

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Question of the Day: Is it wrong to care what others think? 
Challenge of the Day: go outside!
Photo of the Day: 

Thursday, July 9, 2020

Day 76: Highlights

Highlights of Day 76 of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload:

Swimming!
Salmon cook off (as pictured below - my non-recipe creation turned out pretty solid!)
More unexpected rain :)

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Question of the Day: how do you make hard decisions? 
Challenge of the Day: reach down and touch your toes.
Photo of the Day:

Wednesday, July 8, 2020

Day 75: Highlights

Day 75 of #100daystooffload and #100DaysofHannah gets to be another highlight reel... So without further adieu, here are my Wednesday highlights:

A beautiful morning walk
A haircut
A short shopping trip
Grilling x 2
A nap
Making homemade ice cream
Playing with kittens
Getting drenched in a surprise storm
Starting Hamilton

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Question of the Day: Have you watched Hamilton? What is your favorite scene? 
Challenge of the Day: be happy
Photo of the Day: 

Tuesday, July 7, 2020

Day 74: To Keep Blogging?

With a mere 26 days left of this challenge, I am once again left to contemplate ending the challenge early secondary to consistently poor content and a sheer lack of motivation. 

Question of the Day: Is blogging without purpose worth it? Is anything accomplished by this task? 

I'm. Not. Sure. 

Challenge of the Day: make a decision
Photo of the Day:

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah

Monday, July 6, 2020

Day 73: Super Short

What would life be without another short post?

Question of the Day: Do you like driving with windows up or down?
Challenge of the Day: don't eat when you're not hungry. 
Photo of the day: 

Til tomorrow,
Hannah 

Sunday, July 5, 2020

Day 72: Empty

It's Day 72 of #100daystooffload and #100DaysofHannah and I'm firmly convinced that I simply don't have words anymore.

Day in and day out, I have nothing to say.
My mind is almost completely blank - with rarely a formed thought

And so I just continue to sit - in silence.

Til tomorrow, 
Hannah 

Question of the Day: how do you turn your rain back on?
Challenge of the Day: breathe.
Photo of the Day: 

Saturday, July 4, 2020

Day 71: July 4th

Happy Independence Day, y'all!

It's Day 71 of #100daystooffload and #100DaysofHannah, as well as my absolute favorite holiday.

Mainly because... Summer! 

Today's highlights:
A sunrise walk
Real breakfast
Lunch with a friend
Swimming
Playing with kittens
NTT
And watching local fireworks. 

Now I need sleep. 

Til tomorrow,
Hannah 

Question of the Day: what is your favorite holiday?
Challenge of the Day: make a dessert!
Photo of the Day: 

Friday, July 3, 2020

Day 70: Pictures

This day 70 of #100DaysofHannah and #100daystooffload brought to you from my phone, by the sound of fireworks.

Y'all. I really need to learn to blog earlier in the day. Because otherwise I'll be writing posts as I fall asleep for the next 30 days and never say much of anything.

On that thought, here are some thoughts or quotes from the last couple days:

"don't be offended, but an orc in Wow has the same hair as you."
"you look like dog poo"
"today is a good day for looking at clouds and seeing pictures... I just don't know what they look like."

Life is weird. One day you're a doctor in a major city. The next you're having game night interrupted to kill a coon... 

That's all folks! 

Til tomorrow,
Hannah 

Question of the Day: Why are my allergies worse when I sit down?
Challenge of the Day: Explain something to someone else.
Photo of the Day: 

Thursday, July 2, 2020

Day 69: nothing to say

Day 69 of #100daystooffload and #100DaysofHannah brought to you from my (dying) phone.

Short post because I want and need sleep..  And because there is nothing pressing on my mind. 

Question of the Day: Is it possible to sleep in Summer without a fan? 
Challenge of the Day: wear a mask long enough to get past the initial panic.
Photo of the Day: 

Wednesday, July 1, 2020

Day 68: Now What...

On this Day 68 of #100DaysofHannah and #100DaystoOffload, I'm convinced that may never write a post that doesn't consist of "I'm too tired to be blogging" again in my life.

C'est la vie.

I have now been unemployed for approximately 28 hours.
I have been alone for 9.5 of these hours.
I am at an utter loss as to what to do.

After music-ing for somewhere around 4 hours this afternoon, working out, and cleaning I quickly remembered how much I struggle with not having things to do.

In other words, while my hours in the house have not dramatically changed in the last 28 hours, the tasks that I have to fill those hours are vastly different.

Or non-existent.

Weird.

And so the job hunt begins.

'Til tomorrow,
Hannah


Question of the Day: Is there an unspoken rule about never going in someone else's room, or is it all in my head?
Challenge of the Day: Don't die.
Photo of the Day:

Day 1: Mornings

This post brought to you while sitting outside, sipping coffee, and watching the sun rise. For those of you who don’t know me, I have a ...